Not in the clear yet.

Last week I got a phone call from my old doctor telling me that I need to come in for more tests. I had to tell him that I was no longer covered under the same insurance and couldn't be seen there anymore. He urged me to find a new doctor and assured me they'd send over my files so I could continue my tests and treatments on schedule. I thanked them and got on with my busy day. But something built up inside of me. ANXIETY. I am so tired of tests and little surgeries and the aches and pains that comes with it all. I am so afraid that this time, my doctors will say I need a hysterectomy or that cancer cells are spreading. This is such a frustrating cycle.

A few days after the call, my partner came home from being in the field and I ended up crying to him, feeling like a wimp. He held me, listened to me feel sorry for myself, listened to my fears, how I don't want to keep fighting when I'm only going in circles, how even though I have my tubes tied, I'm afraid of losing the ability to carry children ripped away from me (because however against it I am now, someday, I *may* want to try for one more with the man I love) and when I was through, he pried my face up with his hands and told me that no matter what I felt like doing, it's important that I continue to FIGHT... for as little or long as it will take because my children need a mother and he is counting on growing old with me.

I closed my eyes and more tears drained out, but this time they were of relief and even joy. I am such a lucky girl to have such an incredible man help dress me in proverbial armor and ready me for war. He was beside me the last three procedures and he's still beside me, prepared for whatever may come.

Sometimes I can get caught up in the moment. Sometimes I feel like giving up on the struggle and quitting. It makes all the difference in the world to have people in my life who love me and encourage me to keep in the fight.

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