Friday, July 12, 2013

"Christians"

I'm having a rough day. I have a gentle heart and I can't seem to let people's ignorant, hurtful comments and jabs just roll off my back. If we haven't even had a conversation, or met in person, what makes someone think they know enough about me to justify their less-than-kind behavior toward me?

Also, unless I'm doing something that negatively and directly affects someone else, why should they have ANY interest in the goings on of my life?! It's mind-boggling to me the number of people who say they "Know about my situation", they "Already know" this or that... Unless You hear it DIRECTLY from me, assume you know NOTHING.

You know what's even worse? Most of the negativity I have in my life is brought there by people who call themselves Christians. I am a Christ follower. Aren't we supposed to be sharing God's Love and be a candle to the world? I am not seeing people act like that too often! I see a bunch of gossipy, judgmental, rude, and spiteful people walking around trying to even some invisible scoreboard and I am getting frustrated!

*DEEP BREATH*

Okay... Tell ya what. To the few people who have tried to bring be down, I'm no longer giving you space in my head. You don't deserve my time. To the two women who have insulted my looks... You both are as pretty on the outside as you are on the inside, so maybe you should take a good hard look in the mirror before calling me a "5".  It looks as though I may have to continue to have you in my life, so I pray you can stop wasting your time throwing digs in my direction and learn to focus and be happy with yourself... because you're obviously not and I feel sad for you.

To the rude and gossipy people who have entered my life, WATCH OUT, because I'm going to go out of my way to do something nice for you. Maybe it's been a while since someone has been kind to you. Maybe you need an example or a reminder of how we should treat each other. I'm going to be that example for ya.

Since this is MY blog and I can do with it as I please, I'm going to take away the ammo for future hateful rebuttals.

I am a Christian, and like EVERYONE, I am a sinner (see NIV Romans 3:23).
My Misgivings are as follows:
  • I have been cheated on and cheated back. 
  • I have unmartial sex (at least once a day). 
  • I have had more than one sex partner.
  • I entered a relationship with a man during the required 6 month separation period of my divorce.
  • I have lied approximately 50 times in my life (including calling in sick to work, and white lies about why I was late). 
  • I have said "God-Dammit" and "Jesus" when I haven't been praying. as well as a few other broken commandments 
  • I have hated someone.
  • I have wished death on someone... heck, a few people.
  • I have trouble forgiving certain things and certain people.
  • I have an affinity for inappropriate, nighttime behavior in church parking lots (If they are churches of another religion I won' burn in hell will I?)

I am constantly changing and becoming a better, cleaner soul. I prefer to learn from my mistakes, but not dwell on them. If I think I can help someone by sharing my past with them, I will. If someone wants to know me better and asks about my past, I will answer honestly. Other than that, I try to leave my past with my God, live for today and build for my future.

1 comment:

  1. Could you be any more fake if you tried? Why don't you try spending time with your own 3 kids instead of posting pictures of someone else's 4? You think you are going to win mom of the year by trying to pretend you have this new great life and family of 7? What do you offer besides sex? You don't cook or clean and from pictures i've seen you obviously don't know how to give a child a bath. Stop being suck a tag chasing whore and try to make a life for yourself without depending on a military man like you apparently have your whole life. Way to hop from 1 military guy to another though without wasting any time or skipping a beat. What's your criteria for a relationship "must be a Marine and have a minivan so my kids can have transportation"? The truth hurts so feel free to delete this like you do the rest of them and keep posting blog updates about how happy you are and how great you life is. Reading the bullshit you write is entertaining. I'm sure your husband gets a kick out of reading it too...actually i know he does. LOL

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